Word association

I was working a crossword puzzle and the hint was secretly (2 words).  I had to look up the answer and it was sub rosa. . Rosa, Rose. Red roses. my birthday. Red roses from Anthony. Anthony. Gone too soon. 22 years old.  Young Highway Patrolman.   Nov 17 graduated from cadet to patrolman. Dec 13 graduated from life on earth to life in heaven. There for 55 years. In my heart forever.